Above is the video of Michael W. Smith's "A Place In This World", and below are the words from Michael W. Smith's song "A Place In This World".
As I am thinking about my oldest graduating from high school this year...my thoughts wonder to the fact that my youngest is right behind him by only a few years. And then wonder to 'what is my place in this world' now that the dynamic of our family is changing?
When my oldest was four years old and my youngest was two years old, my idea of being a mother changed. A friend of mine gently exposed my faults as a mother... She revealed ways that I could improve my relationship with my children for the immediate and for the future. Everyone kept telling us 'relish these years', 'don't wish them away', ''who cares if your house is a wreck...they are only little once'. I am sure many of you have heard these statements too many times, too. I always walked away wondering if they knew what they were saying or if they were just exaggerating...
For about five years now as they were growing into young adults, I have been preparing them to be adults that will contribute to society and God's kingdom, be able to handle a home of their own, and to be wise in their 'going forward'. Don't worry...I have a point.
Three years ago, my husband started a new job that keeps him away for days at a time...we are grateful for his job. Can you hear the 'BUT' coming? And many of you know that my hubs and I have had our own share of 'fun years' in our marriage. Don't worry....still getting to my point.
Back to the exaggerating, helpful more experienced mothers:
How many of us get to the stage in life where you wonder how/where you fit in this life as it changes? Yes, I am finally getting to my point. The kids are embarking on life choices that... yes, you will be involved with, but not making the decision...yes, they ask for your opinion, but ultimately will go with where they are lead...yes, they are going to fall and get back up, AND they will be okay...
I look at my children--EXCITED to see how their life will follow where God takes them. EXCITED for how I will fit into that plan? EXCITED, and nervous... The 'what if' statements begin... Will they follow God's leading? Will I fit into their plan?? And then God reminds me, " For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11. Maybe this was written to the Israelites back in the day...maybe this was written for me '...for such a time as this?' (Esther 4:14).
I know that I am not the only mother who has gone thru 'this day' wondering what her place in this world will look like now that her role as momma is beginning to change/has changed/has already changed. :) I will continue to '...seek first the Kingdom of God...' (Mat 6:33)...to find what my place is in this world and looking forward to Heaven--where my hope and future lies. :)
The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems
Feels like I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world
If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong?
Is there a vision
That I can call my own?
Show me, I'm
Looking for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Lookin' for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Lookin' for a reason
Roamin' through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
